Just Gotta Live the Mystery

April 27, 2005 at 8:40 am (Life)

I just wonder some times if it’s all worth it. I mean it’s gotta be, but I still haven’t seen it yet. And trust me, it’s not like I haven’t tried to see it. I guess with all the stuff that I’ve tried since I first wanted to KNOW, I still haven’t tried the right things. This doesn’t mean that I’m giving up though. Oh no, I’m far from doing that.

Life means so much, and I think it’s why it can never be truly explained. So maybe me searching for my place is useless, but until I know for sure, it’s far from over.There’s a book by Christopher Pike (his pen name)called “Remember Me 2:The Return” and in this book there is a line that I HAVE to quote: “How foolish we were to try and explain the mystery of life. . .The mystery could be lived but never explained.” That quote gives me hope that maybe my search won’t be useless and a waste of time. At the very least I’ll know why the mystery can’t be explained.

And I try to remind myself that even if I die not knowing my place, it will be okay. And for those of you that have never read “Remember Me” 1,2, and 3 please do so! Especially if you are in the same predicament as me. . . It will truly help. Another good book is “The Starlight Crystal”, also by Christopher Pike. These books helped me so much, and are prolly the reason I began to search and question my life. They opened my eyes to find out for myself and not be blindly lead along like so many others. . .

I don’t know, maybe I’m just talking a bunch of crap and nonsense, but it’s what makes sense to me , and because of that maybe some of you will have to look at me differently now. Honestly, that’s fine. Look at me how you want to. I have no influence over you, and I’m not trying to. Just letting you know how it is. Now I’m gonna go try LIVING the mystery of life.

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Heh

April 27, 2005 at 8:16 am (Uncategorized)

Who knew it was possible to be so good at MUSIC that one could make a triangle sound impossibly heavenly. . . Well, Sarah and I can testify that there is such a person, and wow! What can I say??? Madden is a GOD, and I swear he invented music himself.

So today I don’t have to be at school until 12:00! Thank goodness for the juniors and their ACT’s. Tomorrow is the same, so I’m gonna try and get some good writing in here. I can’t make any promises though. I’ll prolly post later but I gotta go find some stuff.

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I Love How I Feel

April 15, 2005 at 3:35 pm (Uncategorized)

I can seriously see how much I’ve changed since “losing” my first e-bloggy blog. . . I think I’m a little more mature, but I know I still have a while to go before I can reach my goal.

I’m just extremely glad I found my old blog, cause there are some very deep, emotional pieces of my writing. If I had lost them forever I think I would have cried!

So Band is definitely my favorite class these days, and Spanish too. Everything else is getting extremely aggravating and seems almost pointless.

Ahh, I know today is not my greatest writing, but hey. . . I gotta get back in the groove of doing this.

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