*just smiling*

June 30, 2006 at 10:59 am (Uncategorized)

As mad as I am at my mom right now, I really am quite happy. And I’m pretty sure that everyone around me is happy too. I hope so anyway!

Just so you all know, today I was riding home from my LAST DAY of Safety *does happy-white-girl dance*, and I fell off my bike…. It was after I had left from talking to Rob and all the other people sword fighting, and this time there was blood. Not too much though, and before you ask: YES! I AM OKAY!

Yep, I guess that’s pretty much it… Not too many eventful things going on. I’m just enjoying being happy, and I hope you can say that too.


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June 29, 2006 at 10:10 am (Uncategorized)

You’re a 90’s kid if:

You’ve ever ended a sentence with the word “PSYCHE!”

You just cant resist finishing this… “Iiiiiiin west Philadelphia born and raised…”

You remember TGIF on ABC. Step by Step, Family Matters, Dinosaurs, and Boy Meets World.

“Miss Susie had a steam boat, the steam boat had a bell..miss Suzie went to heaven the steamboat went to hell_o operator please give me number 9 and if you disconnect me i’ll kick you from behind the fridgerator, there was a piece of glass, miss Suzie sat upon it and broke her little ass_k me no more questions, please tell me no more lies the boys are in the bathroom zipping up their flies, are in the city the bees are in the park …………………….. miss Suzie and her boyfriend are kissing in the D-A-R-K- D-A-R-K D-A-R-K dark dark dar dar da dark”

You remember when Kurt Cobain, 2Pac, River Phoenix, and Selena died.

You know that “WOAH” comes from Joey from “Blossom” and that “How Rude!” comes from Stephanie from “Full House”

You remember when it was actually worth getting up early
on a Saturday to watch cartoons.

You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.

You remember reading “Goosebumps”

You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.

You danced to “Wannabe” by the Spice Girls, Females: had a new motto, Males: got a whole lot gay-er.

You remember the craze, then the banning of slap bracelets and slam books.

You still get the urge to say “NOT” after (almost) every sentence…Not…

You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record “Your FAVORITE song of ALL time”

Where in the world is Carmen San Diego? was both a game and a TV game show.

Captain Planet.

You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green Ranger were meant to be together.

When playing power rangers with friends you fought over who got to be who…………and still all ended up being Tommy.

You remember when super Nintendo’s became popular.

You always wanted to send in a tape to America’s Funniest Home Videos… but never taped anything funny.

You remember watching home alone 1, 2 , and 3……..and tried to pull the pranks on “intruders”

“I’ve fallen and I can’t get up”

When you have played and beaten Mario brothers/duck hunt.

If you ever watch cheers.

You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates

if you member when every thing was “da BOMB”

when they made the new lunchables so that you could make tacos and pizza!!
You wore socks over leggings scrunched down

“Miss Mary Mack, Mack, Mack, all dressed in black, black, black, with silver buttons, buttons, buttons, all down her back, back, back” SHE ASKED HER MOTHER MOTHER MOTHER FOR FIFTY CENTS CENTS CENTS TO SEE THE ELEPHANTS PHANTS PHANTS JUMP OVER THE FENCE THE FENCE THE FENCE
he jumped so high high high he touched the sky sky sky and he didn’t come back back back till the forth of july ly ly he jumped so low ow ow he stubbed his toe toe toe and thats the end end end of the elephants show show show

You remember boom boxes vs. cd players

Writing M.A.S.H. notes. (and the twenty different versions of that)

Making those little fortune cookie things.. and then predicting your life with them.

You remember New Kids on The Block when they were cool

And You Were Obsessed with either ‘N sync or Backstreet Boys. But never NEVER both…

You knew all the characters names and their life stories on “Saved By The Bell”

You played and/or collected “Pogs”

You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet or Nano and brought it everywhere

You haven’t always had a computer, and it was cool to have the internet.

You watched the original Care Bears, My Little Pony, and Ninja Turtles.

Yikes pencils and erasers were the stuff!

All your school supplies were “Lisa Frank” brand.(pencils.notebooks.binders.etc.)

You remember when the new Beanie Babies and talking Elmo were always sold out.

You collected those Beanie Babies.

You used to wear those stick on earrings, not only on your ears, but at the corners of your eyes.

You remember a time before the WB.

You owned a portable tape player.

If you even know what an original Walkman is.

You remember wanting to sit on the orange Nickelodeon couch.

You’ve gotten creeped out by “Are You Afraid of the Dark?”

You know the Macarena by heart.

“Talk to the hand” … enough said

You always said, “Then why don’t you marry it!”

You know the significance of the number 23.

You went to McD’s to play in the play place.

You remember playing on merry go rounds…at the play ground.

You remember dreaming to be on a Nickelodeon game show: Double Dare, Nick Arcade, GUTS, Legends of the Hidden Temple, Fun House, Figure It Out…

You all know you watched Hey Dude, and Salute Your Shorts…

Remember and You Cant Do That On Television where getting slimed first started!

Do You Love Orange Soda? Kel Loves Orange Soda.. Yes I doo I doo I doooo00000000000

When we were younger:

Before the MySpace frenzy…

Before the Internet & text messaging…

Before Sidekicks & iPods…


Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX…

…Back when you put off the 5 hours of homework you had every night.

When light up sneakers were cool.

When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.

When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.

When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie.

When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our Walkmans.

When 2Pac and Biggie where alive.

When the Chicago Bulls were the best team ever.

Way back.

when it was all about N64.

Before we realized all this would eventually disappear

Who would have thought you’d miss the 90’s so much!!!!!

Post this in your bulletin if you remember these days ….
If you grew up in the 90’s you’ve gotta read this

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why must it be me?

June 24, 2006 at 9:02 am (Uncategorized)

I am the most indecisive person I know….. yet she leaves this decision to me!  I don’t want to make it, I just want everyone to be happy.  I can’t even think straight, let alone write about what the fuck I should do.  I refuse to make this choice.  For all I care we could just all come to a stand-still and let things happen on their own.  I don’t want to be the one to break any body’s heart.  And I know she doesn’t either.

So for once I am really glad that Libras weigh their choices carefully before making any sort of resemblance of a decision…. Because if this is really ALL up to me, it may be awhile before any of this gets resolved.

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June 24, 2006 at 7:27 am (Uncategorized)

I got these from someone else, so I bolded the ones I could agree with…. <3Jami

You Know You’re From Illinois When…
You know if someone is from southern, middle or northern Illinois as soon as they open their mouth.
When you say “the city” – you mean Chicago.
You think ethanol makes your truck “run a lot better.”
You know what’s knee-high by the Fourth of July.

Stores don’t have bags; they have sacks.
All the festivals across the state are named after a fruit, vegetable, grain, or animal.
You think of the major four food groups as beef, pork, soddie, and Jell-O salad with marshmallows.
You know what “cow tipping” and “snipe hunting” is.
You spent a good deal of your high school nights hanging out at DQ.
“Vacation” means going to Six Flags.
You don’t pronounce the “S” in Illinois like the rest of the world.

Whenever anyone mentions going out for steak, the first place you think of is Ponderosa.
You know more than one person with a septic tank.
You pronounce the invisible “R” in the word wash.
Down south to you means Kentucky.
You have no problem spelling or pronouncing “Des Plaines”. You think Chicago is a completely different state from Illinois.
You know the answer to the question, “Is this Heaven?”.
You know where all the Yoders live.
Detassling was your first job.
You’ve ever been on a “Geode Hunt”.
Your idea of a really great tenderloin is when the meat is twice as big as the bun
and accompanied only by ketchup and a dill pickle slice.
You learn your pickup will run without a muffler.
When asked how your trip was to any foreign, exotic place, you say, “It was different.”

You consider being called a “Pork Queen” an honor.
People from other states love to hear you say “Illinois” and other words with “Os” in them.
Your dream vacation is a trip to Rock Home Gardens.
You drink “pop.”
You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends from Illinois.

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*tears*….. *and more tears*

June 21, 2006 at 3:42 pm (Uncategorized)

I don’t know anymore…  To be honest I’d choose her 50 times over him.  I know I would, but I don’t want to.  And she can’t make me.

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June 20, 2006 at 11:30 am (Uncategorized)

Yeah, I’m pretty much in pain.  Ah, not really, my leg is just killin’ me.  I flipped off my bike this morning in the Centennial student parking lot.  Let’s just say that it kinda hurt.  I finally put in a pretty slide show on MySpace.  If you don’t like it then you’re either a) horrible, b) a straight male, c) a lesbian, or d) you just have horrible taste in men.  So there. . .

Yep, that’s my random rant for today.  I guess there are a few more things on my mind, but they be kind of personal, and I would prefer not to share.

And yes, thanks for asking, I had a wonderfully fun time last night.  It was great!

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i need to remember….

June 15, 2006 at 12:09 pm (Uncategorized)

I am feeling a little down today and I’m sure a couple of you know why.  I was really looking forward to today, but “you can’t always get what you want”.  I guess I’ll just have to remember that he’s a Marine before he’s my boyfriend.  I mean, hell, he’s not even “technically” my boyfriend yet.  *sigh*  If it weren’t so hot I’d be napping now.  Cuz let’s face it, sleeping is much easier than caring.

And I’m trying so desperately not to be bothered about him not being here today, but for some reason I just feel really crappy and upset and pissed and so many other things I don’t even know how to explain it.  I mean it’s not like he hates me or like I’ll never see him again, but it really is upsetting me.  I just hope that he feels the same way.  Well, actually I don’t want him to feel this bad cuz it really sucks.  I just hope that he’d consider being upset about not being able to hang out with me.  Then again, I’m probably the most emotional person I know.  Even if it doesn’t show. . .  So this is all probably just me overreacting and being an emo little bitch.  I hope not, but it probably is.

So maybe I should see if I can hang out with Sarah today instead.  At least my mind won’t be on him and the WHOLE marine thing. . .  She’s prolly the only one who could get me to smile just now.

Just so you guys don’t think I’m only upset about him not being here today, I’m not.  This situation just got me thinking about how in a year’s time he won’t even be here.  And it makes me doubt whether or not we should ya know, do anything.  My mom was talking to me about it last night.  And she’s right.  I shouldn’t fall in love with him.  I mean, I want to cuz I really like him and I wanna be with him, but that just means that it will hurt even more when he leaves.  Ehh, this sucks  But I guess this could be me overreacting too. .

Sometimes it seems like that’s my whole life.  Someone does/says something and I overeact and then I get over it, just to start the cycle all over again and again and again and. . .

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June 14, 2006 at 4:47 pm (Uncategorized)

My life feels strange now.  Everything is suddenly working out for me and not being well, bad.  Then I realize that it’s kinda sad that I feel that way.  My past year should have, COULD have been great. . . but leave it to me to mess things up.

Moving on.  I am really happy and I’m sure if you know me then you know why.  So with that I’ll leave you all with the joy of knowing that I am doing wonderfully FABULOUS!

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June 12, 2006 at 2:35 pm (Uncategorized)

Goodness Gracious!!! Isn’t anyone ever on when I need to talk to them??? Ah well, I’ll be seeing him soon . . . I hope.

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Can I really be honest?

June 9, 2006 at 11:17 am (Uncategorized)

I don’t know how to write about this stuff without being like honest.  I don’t even know if they will care if I am totally and completely honest, but if they get pissed oh well.

First off, I am really not sure why Sarah would ever compare herself to me.  She is the better person all around.  I mean at least where it will actually count in the real world.  Me, I’m just ya know, more adept at socializing, but that’s about it.  She’s much smarter, knows and is confident what she stands for, and ya know. . . Less of a sneaky bitch.  And yes, I am.  You may not know it, but I am almost completely sure that if you are reading this I have probably tried to use you for at least one thing.  Whether it is important any more, probably not.

Second, I am tired of her feeling and complaining about how she is a burden.  Sure, if she didn’t like him I might be like I dunno, with him, but I really want her to know that she comes FIRST and so if she isn’t okay with there being an “us” then damnit, I’ll make sure that there isn’t.  And yes, I am saying that her happiness comes before mine.  Sarah is the only damn person I can prolly ever say that about besides my little brother.  So that’s my little rant about that. . .

Now today I am going over to her house to spend the night and go see a movie and I’m pretty sure that we’re going to watch Rob, Corey, Jared, and everyone else sword fight Saturday morning, but I think the specifics on that are still in the making.  So, I dunno if we will talk about it, but if we don’t oh well.  Guys are awesome, especially the one I’ve got in mind, but friends always come first.

Let’s see, how can I say it without. .  oh, I give up.  My mom is a bitch.  See, this week I have: Sunday- Hung out with Rob, Monday- Not a damn thing , Tuesday- went to see The Omen with Sarah and Randi, Wednesday- Hung out with Rob, Thursday- worked(oh wee, so much fun) and then my plans for today and tomorrow.  And ya know what she says? I need to start staying home more often. . . I’m like “WHAT THE F***????”  URGH!  She is still really pissed at me for the whole grade thing this past year, and says that for me just recently being ungrounded that I’m doing too much.  Now, I believe that if I were to sit at home all week, she’d be like ” Quit being a lazy-ass and go do something.”  And she would too.  I just reallly hate how my parents are never happy with anything that I do.  I really cant wait for the moment I can leave.

So yes, that’s how I am feeling this lovely June morning.

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I just wanna cry in front of you. . .

June 8, 2006 at 10:55 am (Uncategorized)

So yes. Things are complicated. Just like they always are. But what is a girl to do? I want everybody to be happy, but I also realize that that is really unrealistic.

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So Not Sure

June 6, 2006 at 7:31 am (Uncategorized)

So he likes me, I like him, but she likes him too.  I know she has liked him all year, but what is a girl to do?  I talked to him about it a little bit, and he feels the same way I do about not wanting to hurt her.  So maybe I can talk to her about it later on, and see if we can’t work something out. . .

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