November 27, 2009 at 5:55 pm (Uncategorized)

I don’t how it’s possible to miss someone you’ve never actually met… but I do.

I guess it’s this feeling that if we ever did meet we’d kind of be perfect for each other. Or best friends at the very least.

This world continues to amaze me. How much you can care about people. The people you have everyday in your life and those who you just feel a simple connection with. Every time I think about it, I get over whelmed. Maybe you’ll call me naive or silly minded, but I really do believe that there is so much more love in people than we ever care to show.

It’s because love is scary I think. A lot scarier than hating someone or even ignoring someone.

But enough of that… I was just writing because I am still confused. Confused about where to go from here. What to do or say or even what to feel.


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Here I am

November 25, 2009 at 2:12 am (Uncategorized)

And a much different person than you last heard from sits down to write these words.

It has been so long that I am not even sure why I stopped blogging. Maybe because I thought I was too busy or something. In reality, I’m not *that* busy.

So I figure I will write again. Especially since I have some things to figure out again. Seems like every time my head gets all muddled, I run to every friend I have and vent and sometimes it works. This time though, it’s different. I don’t know who I can talk to about what is bothering me…

I really just don’t want to feel silly or ridiculous about the mess that is going through my head. And if you knew… you’d think I was silly. All of you.

So here I am… sitting behind my screen yet again to try to work out this situation.

I think that’s all I have for tonight. Can’t really bare to open up completely in one ranty blog. Just thought I would update to let anyone who reads this (as if there is someone out there who does) know that I am gonna be actively blogging again.

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